My.story

History starts now
For almost two score and ten
I have listened to the stories of them
Those that sit by and just let life happen to them
They tell the story of my apparent history

The difference between me and them
Is quite stark in contrast as you begin
To grasp that I have little interest in hearing more stories of him

My history is here
My history is now
I can't change yesterday
But with my thoughts and actions today
I can effect tomorrow somehow

Then when I am gone
And my shadow follows me no more
You can tell them my.story

15:53 -15:59

History my friends lies in our own hands
We need to effect change today somehow.

Train of Thought

I'm stealing...

Creative inspiration from all types of different places

These paces I catch up with and leave behind without traces

But in my heart they leave fine footprints

They to my soul are drink

My internal conflict the seek to quench.

12:45 -12:47

If everyone would think of themselves first

Then it would be ok for you to use me 'til you use me up.

Consume me like a piece of social junk

Then discard me like a piece of trash for the next one to pick up.

12:47 - 12:49

Peace

Believe me

Whatever you choose to believe

It is my belief that it is a relief that we can all believe in peace

Don't bog me down with your ideas and ideologies

Release me from your need for gratification

I don't need to believe in what you believe in.

12:49 - 12:52

Onwards and forever upwards

I used to believe in one God

Then my brother came to me and told me he was God

Now I believe that in every man there is an element of God

Eloheem

The redeemed

It's not always what it seems

12:52 - 12:54

I'm trying to change...

Change the way that I relate

To the drama you create

If for every action there is always and equal and opposite reaction

Maybe if I react in peace then it will bring you some relief.

12:54 - 12:56

I'm thinking backwards

Although I can't change the past

this very moment will pass

So maybe I really can change the past!

12:56 - 12:58

Five ways to change the world

Peace, Love, Embrace, Smile, Shut up.

12:58 -12:59

Ha ha! I hope I made you laugh

13:00

How ironical

It kills me to write that less than two weeks after my previous post my dear cousin Randy passed away...
And I never got to finish telling him everything I had to say.

Shit.

More You...

I like this...

I used to have nightmares now I just dream.

When I was little there was a dream I would have. I must've had it more than once because it stayed with me, in my memory.

I dreamt that there was a really huge building I believe it was a hotel or something with floors and floors of rooms and banisters around them all overlooking the ground floor below. From the higher floors it was quite a drop.  As a child this hotel was never intact I would always dream that we were on one of the top floors when the ground would begin to fall away from us and I'd always watch as those around me slipped and went plummeting to the darkness below while I was left clinging onto the banister for dear life with a few other survivors.

I had this dream again a few weeks ago but this time, for the first time I saw the magnificence of the hotel.  It was a beautifully grand building with crystal chandeliers, and opulent carpeting and lots and lots of light; which reflected beautifully off the cream marble flooring below. This time it wasn't falling apart around me it was intact and it was stunning.  I stood in the exact same place I had always stood before but the ground remained firm and the lights remained on.  I still had a faint fear for the memory of the old nightmares still lingered with me but those nightmares were gone and I was left with a beautiful dream.

Introduction

Today I went to an old acquaintances page on facebook, he passed a few years back but his page is still active.  I noticed how a lot of people had written so man wonderful things about him on there and left such beautiful messages and it just made me think.  "Wouldn't it be nice if someone would write such nice things about you while you were alive?"

So I decided to try and write this blog to put out some of the good thoughts and feelings I have about the people in my life as well as to write other random creative things that are floating around in my head.

I've made this blog private so God bless you if you've been invited to view it.

Love